I worry a lot.
(okay maybe I do.)
I like to think I am a pretty relaxed person, most of the time.
but I will throw myself out there and say I worry.
we all do.
but what are the things that keep me up the most?
oh, just those things
I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONTROL OVER.
but things that maybe, if I try really hard I can.
-I worry that I will love my kids more than my husband,
bc he will be able to take care of himself & so I will push him to the back burner.
-I worry that my parents will leave me too soon.
When is too soon? Well of course any time that I am still here. bc I want them here for every.single.thing. and there will never not be a milestone that I want to do without them.
-Even worse. One parent leaving me and the other too soon.
-That my best friends will move across the country (or to another country)
& those random days together will be less and less.
-That someone will fall out of love with me, bc I am difficult & a perfectionist.
-That I won't have a job one day.
bc I worked for myself for years & my resume will still look similar to when I was 21.
babysitting is credible, no?
-That my kid will be special needs and I will love them,
but the world will be cruel.
-That cancer will win.
-That my friends won't be able to have children.
-When that first person breaks my kid's heart.
so today...today I have my health, my parents, my best friends, love, a job, a place to live, and a lot of other really amazing things.
so today I will not solve the whole world and figure out God's plans.
I will relax and know that bad things are inevitable... but it will be okay!